Thursday, February 19, 2009,10:10 PM
Read with the following songs,
Yiruma - River Flows In You.
Yiruma - Moon Light.
Yiruma - Kiss The Rain.
I need you, I need you, I need you,
I need you, I need you, I need you,
I need you, I need you, I need you,
I need you, I need you, I need you,
I need you, I need you, I need you,
I need you, I need you, I need you,
I need you, I need you, I need you,
I need you, I need you, I need you.
When all my hopes have been pinned up high, & a single phrase from you, can just break everything into pieces. It just shatters my heart into pieces, pieces which i can't mend it back. I don't know how to open up to you, i don't know how to face you. I'll have to put up with another front, to let you & everyone elses feels, I'm okay, I'm alright. I've been holding onto this front for a period of time, & all i know is, I'm tired. I really am. Everything that i do, just reminds me of you. Regardless of whatever i do, it just relates back to you. I want you back by my side so much, too much that no one could ever imagined. Neither could you understand why will i want you back so much. You don't see yourself the way i do. I've learnt to cherish you for every way that i could. & I've also learnt one thing, i could only admire you from afar. There's a limit to every distance that i travel, & that distance ends right here. I'll be waiting for you, I still will be. Until maybe one day, when I'm really sick & tired, I'll not be around anymore. Take care of yourself well. Perhaps by that time, it'll be what I'll call, 'It's all too late to turn back.' Life is only a one-way street, when it's all over, it's all too late to turn back. Like you said, life doesn't always have second-chances. 11 days from now, it'll all not be the same as to how that day was 365 days ago. It will all not be the same, anymore. This period without you by my side, had really been hard. I've specially tried to change for you. & i really hope that you could see the changes. I don't want to judge the changed by myself. I'll let you judge it. I promise to love you whole-heartedly. Darling, this time will be different. I assure you, it will be. For all this time that I've been waiting, I've come to this point to know how important this relationship and you means to me. I've lost it once, i really don't want to lose you again. I'm not a good lover, but I'll change for you. I really need this chance to prove it once again. Honey, i really want to be with you, again.
P.S: Darling, i still love you.
Hold my hand, we'll be there together.