Wednesday, January 21, 2009,10:00 PM
It's for you.
Sorry for everything i made you go through. Thinking about how we used to be. It just harms and hurt me so much. I can't stop crying for you. Am i just pursuing a blinded love? WIth my eyes all shut tight, just so tight. All i see is just plain darkness. While my heart slowly tears open, to see what is all left inside me. A single drop of tears and blood dripped for you, it doesn't matters. Because i'm not the one you used to love anymore. There's so much that i have to ask you. i just need to. When i read your daily escapes, i just hope that every 'you' that you wrote, is just referring to me. But it's not possible. I know it's not possible anymore. It'll no longer be. & now i'm still clinging on with a single hope, hoping we could still turn out so well. & now i know, i'm such a fool, to have let go of you. I thought that either you or me would have gotten so much better without each other. Until i've lost you, i've learnt to cherish. All these time, i had been lying to myself. I don't know why must i do this to myself. Doing something to hurt both you and me. But you moved on, without me painted onto your picture. I don't know how you did that, can you teach me too? I really want to move on, like the way you did. I'm just a ordinary friend to you now. & i guess this thought of me will never change in you. I really really have so much that i have to ask and tell you. For the past one hour, i can't stop crying in front of the com. If you really get a chance to read this, could you just tell me the answers to this questions? I really need and want to know. Please.
1)Have you gotten over me?
2)Do you still think of me in the night?
3)Do you have flashbacks of me at times?
4)Are you happy with your life now?
5)If there's a chance, can we get back to how we were?
P.S: I still love you, like i did yesterday.