I literally teared after i finish reading what you replied. I didn't expect much, all i need is for you to be happy. You don't have to come back to me. All i need is that smile on your face. I tried so much to stop contacting with you. But i can't, we're in the same school. You didn't even tell me how you were or how you felt, how would i know it when you needed me so much. I didn't lie to you, i swear i didn't. If i really did, i wouldn't still be loving you right now. If you hadn't realised, you left me for someone else. It wasn't me that left you, perhaps i really did. I was self-centered. I'm selfish, i didn't care about your feelings. I wasn't there when you needed me, i was a failure of love. I'm whatever you feel i am. When will i have a chance to say my piece? I've tried to talk to you so many times in the past, but you never hear what i say. You make it sound so easy, then all the blame gets pushed to me. I do think of you day and night, especially when i go to places we've gone before. & stupid things that I've done in front of you. I think about everything of you, & everything that have to do with you. Whether or not you've eaten or bathe, you've brushed your teeth or watch your television programmes. You aren't me, how would you know if i think about you at all? Seriously, you don't know. Even my closest friends don't even know, how would you know how i feel or think ? You've changed for me, but it's not like i didn't. I've tried my best. But i told you, i need time. But the next second, we were gone, & almost a week after, you're with another guy. It wasn't my fault, I'm not pushing the blame to you. In a relationship, both are at fault. & it always takes two hands to clap. Why do you make it sound like everything is my fault? You stayed away from others? Was it? If you really had stayed away, this wouldn't have happened. So you must be feeling or thinking that it must have been a complete waste of 2 months together with me? Everything we do, is just for the sake of each other or one another. Is this how you feel? I didn't lie to you, I told you that i love you, i swear i didn't lie. I'll swear my life on this. I won't cross the sea nor ocean for you, because i know it's not impossible for anyone to do it. I'll do what's impossible. I'll not exaggerate on my words. I swear i meant what i said. I even whispered to your ears, telling you how much i wanted to you stay. But it's not your fault for this that happened. It's mine, it had always been. I'm sorry.
You don't have to come back by my side,
As long as you're happy,
With that smile planted onto your face.
I'm contented.
I don't expect anything much,
I seriously don't.
It's just that smile,
Can you do that, for me? );